337 DAYS OF CHANGEOh. My. Lawd.337 DAYS OF CHANGE by Kyrelimit
337 Days have passed since I last spoke to you all, and probably a little bit less since I posted or was active on here. All of you have probably moved on a long time ago but hey, the break was well worth it. I can't say that I have come back with 5 million more images to grace my DeviantART page with but I can say that with all that time came a clarity that I did not have before.
For a long time, Ive felt like the work I created was shit. Pure utter shiny crap that lacked any reason or soul. Shooting images for magazines where the only goal was for a model to look hot and nothing else. Fuck their minds, souls or personalities, fuck any form of creative integritiy or dignity, it was about looking as damn hot as one can and fuck the rest.
Somewhere in all of that, I broke. I fell down into a whole and didn't want to surface again. The world was sick and shallow and I wanted my life and work to have meaning, not sex appeal. I stopped shooting and things changed.
RESETAs time goes on, Im learning a lot about myself and other people. Things which have been very obvious to one degree, and completely foreign in another. Its almost like Ive been living in a little bubble, refusing to get out and do things. Making life easier, only to lose touch with it entirely.RESET by Kyrelimit
It feels like every season, Im brought to a changing point, a time that I reset everything. Zero it out and begin anew. A new phase in my little creative world, a new style, a new reason, a new task and a new goal. Freak, I do it monthly almost, without reason aside from my own neurotic googling and assertations.
Im sorry if I have been self-indulgent and self-absorbed to a degree. Its not in my nature and the shear volume of work it takes to freelance and survive is actually quite scary, especially for an introvert. Its not for the shy or lighthearted. You need to be able to TALK, ENGAGE and SOCIALIZE and often those that are quiet and shy struggle the most.These are all