As time goes on, Im learning a lot about myself and other people. Things which have been very obvious to one degree, and completely foreign in another. Its almost like Ive been living in a little bubble, refusing to get out and do things. Making life easier, only to lose touch with it entirely.
It feels like every season, Im brought to a changing point, a time that I reset everything. Zero it out and begin anew. A new phase in my little creative world, a new style, a new reason, a new task and a new goal. Freak, I do it monthly almost, without reason aside from my own neurotic googling and assertations.
Im sorry if I have been self-indulgent and self-absorbed to a degree. Its not in my nature and the shear volume of work it takes to freelance and survive is actually quite scary, especially for an introvert. Its not for the shy or lighthearted. You need to be able to TALK, ENGAGE and SOCIALIZE and often those that are quiet and shy struggle the most.These are all lessons that I am taking into account and In a weird way, Im trying to find myself again. Im trying to find the person I WAS.
Lighthearted, creative and free.
I feel like Ive lost that and Im just going to take some time to find it again and reconnect with the world a bit.
My work will be changing. To something far more interesting and far less fashion/beauty photography. Ive grown to despise the nature of that industry and while I might do a few projects in the future, It will be far less often.
I miss talking to you all and I sincerely thank you all for even caring enough or liking my work enough to be sitting here and reading this.
It means the world to me.